What You Carry Does Not Equal Your Worth

Sep 10

5 min read

New Moon Baby here we come!! It rolls in here in Utah at 9:28 tonight. I honestly can’t wait for this one because wtf…what a cycle we have all been in!! I’m ready to utilize this Virgo energy in all its ancient harvesting ways!

Four incredible things are happening in the sky today that don't usually happen together, all in one single day, right at the threshold under our feet, four celestial bodies changing direction or meeting exactly inside twenty four hours!

Venus out of Libra into Scorpio before sunrise, leaving the air element where she was weighing it out and accounting for it, straight into the deepest form of the element of water, like holding a heavy weight, and jumping right into the ocean…where its depth becomes truth. Love and want stop negotiating today and go straight to what's actually underneath. Depth.
Mercury out of Virgo into Libra by mid-morning, the mind leaving the harvest field and walking into the scale room, the mental sphere. Shifts away from the small sorting and into the bigger questions: balance, what's fair, what you owe and what's owed to you.
Uranus stations retrograde at five degrees Gemini just past noon. The lightning that's been striking from outside turns around and starts wiring itself back into you. Whatever insight comes for the next several months is going to feel less like a bolt out of nowhere, like it has been, and more like something you already knew.
Sun meets Moon exact at eighteen degrees Virgo tonight, the ground this whole cycle gets planted in, earth holding earth, nothing performed about it.

Depending on when you are reading this, we're still in the dark moon, the void, nothing showing yet on her face, the part of the cycle most people rush straight through because there's no visible proof anything's working. This isn't the moment change happens, it's the moment what's already dead stops trying to convince you it's still alive, and what has been is no more. You can feel it if you're honest, the life you've been consciously or unconsciously walking towards getting louder than the one that's already behind you, and the invitation in this dark, right now, is to actually let the old one make its final exit instead of dragging it one more day into a light it was never going to survive in anyway. The version of you that starts on the other side of tonight is not going to look like the one you've been living. It isn't supposed to.

This New Moon isn't your typical one though. It's not a vacuum. We're not even a month out from the total solar eclipse on August 12th and the partial lunar eclipse on August 27th, the pair that closed the Pisces-Virgo axis the nodes had been sitting on for a year and a half and opened the new Leo-Aquarius chapter instead. As alot of you, myself included found, eclipses don't wait for anyone to be ready, they crack things open on their own timeline, and whatever got cracked open in you across those two weeks isn’t done.

There's a star called Spica, Virgo's brightest star, the ear of wheat, held in the hand of a virgin who's also been called Shala in Babylon, Demeter in Greece, and Ceres in Rome. Isis in Egypt was linked to that same harvest mother too. The Greeks also called her Astraea, the last of the immortals still walking among us in the golden age, before the world hardened and she couldn't stay anymore. When she left, she took her scales with her into the sky right beside her.

The ancient understanding of Virgo was not the Virgin, the maiden, in the way that we've been programmed to view her. She held one of the holiest places because it actually dived into what harvest really means. It's discernment through divine channeling, where no mediator was needed for creation. I feel her real work was the sorting of grain from chaff, what feeds you through what's coming and what gets burned because it was never food to begin with. To be able to honestly call it what it actually is. This includes what it means to not earn your worth by how much you can carry without dropping it. It's asking “what will actually sustain the life you're willing into your being.”

Across the wheel from her is the fish, two of them, tied tail to tail so they wouldn't lose each other, thrown into the river to escape something monstrous and turned to water instead of ever being caught. Every version of that myth says the same thing, when something monstrous is coming for you, disappear, become water, lose your shape completely so it can't find what you actually are.

Two totally different ways to survive sit straight across the wheel from each other, one that sorts and keeps what's worth keeping and one that dissolves the whole self so there's nothing left to catch, and we just spent two thousand years living mostly on the dissolving side of that axis, the Age of Pisces, worth measured by how much of yourself you were willing to give away, how far you could disappear into somebody else's needs before there was nothing left of you to find. Last Quarter I called that the same theft Medusa's story has been naming all cycle, power taken and never handed back. Tonight's moon opens the sorting side instead, the keeping side, not the whole self burned as an offering but an actual choice about what's worth carrying forward and what finally gets to leave.

Last Quarter I asked whose picture of you you're still wearing instead of your own, and what you were vowing underneath all of it. Uranus turning around at noon isn't asking you anything, it already decided, rerouting its own charge back inward before it fires back out again, and the sun and moon meeting in divine discernmet, a few hours later isn't asking either, it's just doing it, quietly.

Tonight's a good night to just notice your thoughts, to notice what's actual chaff and what's actual wheat. The power of our minds is a skill of Virgo energy, not something to fix or decide anything final about, just something to actually notice.

What has been already knows it isn't coming with you. What you carry from here was never the measure of what you're worth, it never was. If some part of you has been waiting for permission to finally set it down, the stars have your back!with you. If some part of you has been waiting for permission to finally let it go, this is it.

With you,

Kat

☥ For the good of all, Harm of none